Ruin Me

So once again, I've gone over a month...almost two...without blogging. And it once again isn't because nothing exciting has happened. But I've failed in being introspective of late and have instead thrown myself into work and my kiddos. My blog isn't the only thing that's missing out on attention. I picked up my Bible and my Beth Moore study the other night and blew a month's worth of dust off the top.

Pretty pitiful on my part.

But glorious on God's part. When I got home one day last week, there was a number on the caller id from "Pennsylvania." How cool that an entire Commonwealth would call?! Imagine my joy when I listened to the voicemail from Pittsburgh Public requesting an interview...an interview that I have prayed for and waited on for more than a year. And yet, I am consumed with my kids in Charleston. And as much as I want to, I cannot be consumed with the children of Pittsburgh right now. So, I'll interview in May...

God has always worked on me to teach me how to wait. How my timeline is so much more imperfect than His. And that by trusting Him, He will make things happen...in His time.

I think that the phone call last week was from My Father, more than from the Commonwealth. A message saying, "Hey you. Where've you been? I'm still working on you, whether you spend time with Me or not. I miss you."

Well, here I am, Lord. Your servant is listening, willing to follow where You are leading, on your timeline and not my own.

The lyrics of Jeff Johnson...my reluctant prayer for some time...

Ruin Me

Woe to me I am unclean

A sinner found in Your presence

I see you seated on Your throne

Exalted, Your Glory surrounds You

Now the plans that I have made

Fail to compare when I see your glory

Ruin my life the plans I have made

Ruin desires for my own selfish gain

Destroy the idols that have taken Your place

'Till its You alone I live for, You alone I live for.

Holy Holy is the Lord Almighty !

Holy is the Lord!

Holy Holy is the Lord Almighty!

Holy is the Lord!

I leave you with a prayer request. A dear friend and her husband have been told that they will be parents in early April! This after they were told they would not have children of their own. This after they completed the application process to be foster parents. As delighted as they are, they are both very aware of the level of risk of her pregnancy. Will you join me in praying for health, patience, and trust? Let me know if there's anything I can pray for on your behalf, too. Cheers!

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